Jzebel

saka-ed.

delirously happy bout gettin my craving like finally.

ahmah is forced ta smile nicely for a pic.
HOHO.

i love looking at myself.
u hav a prob with that.
>___<

at least i looked my age dat day.
HOHO.
rite rite rite.
whee.

sakae-ing was good.

tc miao-ey.

evil asses refuse ta let me shop before the buffet. at all. and by the time we finished all the shops. wells most. were closed. rahness.

okok. i shldnt grumble. heh.

o wells.

its amazing how much i can sleep.

sumtimes its all effed up.

if ya get wad i mean.

so darn screwed.

but still.

life goes on as it will always.

juz let me b pretty when i see u. please?

nah. wont work.

its raining.

feel the rain on ur skin. coz no one can feel it for u.

whee.

painting my own self-image.

its tough.

wad if all i see aint wad it seems.

cant i hav confirmation that im the sweetest kindest girl eva.

n then i feel guilty for wanting sum form of confirmation like dat.

oops.
was dat a sign of being nice.

i hate being incoherent to anyone except myself.

stop judging me.

who am i ta demand that u dun judge me when i judge everyone else.

argh!

if only im sum melcanholy isolated ass that doesnt even giv a damn bout the world ard.

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

Don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

For you, I'd give up all I own
And move to a communist country
If you came with me, of course
And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you
And lose those pounds, and learn about football
If it made you stay, but you won't, but you won't

So don't bother,I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry

So don't bother,I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

rahhhh
7:05 PM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

smile.

remember the happy times. pretty much keeps u alive. n kicking.

rahhhh
11:34 PM

lovelove.

Smile
Judy Garland

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile even tho' it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by,

If you smile
thro' your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shin-ing thro'
for you

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev-'ry trace of sadness,
Al -'tho a tear may be ever so near,

That's the time,
You must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worth-while,

If you just smile.

i know i posted this song before. but its. nice. :)

i feel so cryable suddenly.
and then i start missing u.
with leelee's quote. its worse.

anyways.
lotsa ppl in class who r pretty down.
cheer up ppl.
i aint the chummiest person ard ta cheer u up.
but hey.
u r still loved.
so take lotsa care.
n juz remember that U R LOVED.
:)
by me me n me.

may all the ccc ppl hav great performances!
whee.
especially my life sized erm. chokes. "barbie" doll.
haz.
*pinches pinches.
im so darn amused.

okok.

as well as everyone else stressing depressing sulking.
take care.
dun stress.
dun paranoid.
juz.
do ur best.
n we will all love u for it.

n i din get my tamagotchi today coz im broke. sorry fac. hee. NEXT WEEK. i promise.

Youre my past, my future,
My all, my everything,
My six in the morning when the clock rings
and i open up my eyes to a new day
My Laughs, my frowns
My ups, My downs
Its a feeling that you get when you know that somethings true,
When i think of love i think of you

for dearest leelee. n all my frens.

girl. u aint no outcast. if u were i wld havta b a freaking hermit.
with all my eccentric actions mayb a WEIRD hermit.
no no crab. juz hermit.
n no im not les.
i juz like the song n the lyrics. n yes it applies to frens oso for me. cannot ah cannot ah.
RAH.
bite u.

i jus wan everyone ta b happy. n the world ta b filled with candy. please?
*whines incessantly.
HOHO.

rahhhh
11:15 PM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

meelo.

its darn irritating when ur dog pees on ur SCHOOL bag.

rahness.

thats wad monster did TWICE.

GRUMBLES.

n then u will get all irritated n feel like smacking him.

he givs u the 'im-so-innocent-face'

its like he's sayin"no no. i din mean ta pee on ur bag. i tot it was a rug. really. really. dun smack me pweaseeeeee. " *blink blink. say this in the malcolm in the middle duey tone for da effect please.

and so i go on with moping the floor n all. whilst givin him a kick in the butt.

and he becums an angel for like a few hours.

after dat he turns bac into the monster he is. n sleeps on my bed like its his.

rahness.

o wells.

i miss the days when everyon wld juz pop down ta east coast now n then. n lie on the sand watching the stars.

its juz so darn serene.

makes me appreciate everything more.

its irritating how tj is so darn near east coast n i haven been going there much now.

o ya. sunplaza park was good for star gazing too.

o wells.

life goes on.

milo dino please.

y do i always end off with sum food craving. argh! fats.

rahhhh
6:32 PM

please let me float.

high.......................

heh.

lifes gettin betta again.

mus b coz the parents teacher meet is like OVER.

thank heavens miss wong din tell my mum anything drastic that freaked her. or me.

haz.

xiao xiao. jiu suan ur imaginary bf dump u dun sad ok. u hav us! i will still smother u with kisses. i swear. HOHO. nola. juz. kan kai dian oky. :)

o wells.

ups downs blah ness.

swimmin tmrw.

i mean. attepting ta swim swimming classes tmrw.

wow-wee.

float float float...........................

i need. apple dippers. with lotsa lotsa caramel sauce.

rahhhh
5:29 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

we juz love ultimate frisbee. ha.

long day.

weird dream.

econs test.

grumbles.

o wells.

tuesday is a short day.

yayness.

apple dippers with caramel sauce is like YUMMY.

:)

small lil things amuse me non-stop again.

for eg one lil small thing called ser-tan.

heh.

happy kuantan trip ducky!

:)

rahhhh
10:51 PM

Friday, April 21, 2006

你要的不是我

我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落

ngiam.

imissuimissuimissuimissuimissuimissuimissuimissuimissuimissu

ta ser tan: u know y i lurb u. coz u r a JERK. haz. n i love beef jerky. erm actually i dun i juz cnat find a lamer reason. haz.

longlongday.
i wish i cld swim.
then i cld juz jump into the pool when i want.

i wish u were here.
im a selfish ass.
wadeva.

u say u love me say u love me but u're neva there for me.

retail theraphy works.
at least for awhile.

ngiam.

n my vintage shirt is said ta b a tablecloth by the lovelist ass eva. qi-tan.

曾经给你的感觉只是情绪的波动

FEEFIFOFUM. i smell a human.

lurblurb.

haz.

o wells.

tmrws.
another.
day.
wow-wee.
wad.
fun.

the sudden urge ta drink get drunk n juz sleep sleep sleep.

actually
sleeping is the main point.
wait. no.
drinking wld b nice.
warm-meywarm-mey
HO.HO.HO.
santa claus is cumin ta town.
i think i sound drunk.
hiak.

go,go brag You have left me heartless, mine is in your bosom I hope 'twill multiply love there.

the impact of love.

marvellous aint it.

rite......... ding yong quan.......................

hahahahahah.

treasure her dude..... GIRLS追重要的是名分

heard dat.....................

rahhhh
12:18 AM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

...

i miss you.

n thats silly.

sum ppl juz make it worse.

kill me please.

its been so long.

tired.

o wells.

how wonderful life is when u're in the world.

ya rite.

rahhhh
12:03 AM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

hehpart2.coz its all about me. hiak hiak. nanny nanny poo poo

恨我来不及参与你的过去
抱歉让你等待。

rahhhh
9:14 PM

heh.

oops. thats the big green thing in the bacgrd. ignore him. the focus is on me. the weird thing with the wrapped up scarf like thingy covering my head. HOHO.

gear up for the whole new blog entry of beh n her grumblings. wow. so exciting.

i shld be lovely.demure.gentle.kind.sporty.saturatedly sweet.outrageously pretty. hopelessly charming. n deeply in o-so-sweet love.

but god decided ta spend much much much less time when he was creating me.

n so here i am.

sulking my days away. whining. complaining. grumbling. biting. whacking. slacking. melting. solidifying after i melt. spying. stalking furtively. with an obsession ta kissing xiaoxiao ser n leelee.

i bet u ppl wished god had spent at least a lil more time on me. saves alot of ur time listening to me whine.

so if any irritating ass decides ta sneak up on me n sing the freaking nsync song 'god must have spent a lil more time on u' , guess wad her/his fate wld b.

headlines. ' FOUND DEAD IN DITCH COVERED WITH BLOOD'

haz, thats beh with the inferior complex speaking. say hi.

haz.

u see.

o wells.

o yaya. to clarify. the quote i was imitating today during gp of lky wasnt supposed ta cum out in an indian accent. i wanted it ta b of a british accent. I SWEAR. cross my heart. really really really. worse part of the whole thing. it was mr veeras class. and i only realised my accent AFTER i finished speaking. really............... sobz.

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me

chalaboleedompididoo-ey.bagoonahrehraruupadedidu.

rahhhh
8:31 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

rah

When they were...
Dancin' and singin'
and movin' to the groovin'
And just when it hit me somebody turned around and shouted
Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy
Lay down that boogie and play that funky music till you die
Till you die,
oh till you die

rachie liau. wad do u mean im not the prettiest girl in class~!!!! rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. bites u.

o wells. dance dance.

rahhhh
4:01 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

ikablaleebididooeymayu.

(i just know your life's gonna change)
maybe not today, maybe not today
some day soon you'll be all right
(i just know your life's gonna change)
don't turn the other way, turn the other way
feels like luck is on your side
(just wanna live)
no worries, no worries
(don't wanna die)
no worries, no worries
(fight through the lows)
say it for me, say it for me,
(and take all the highs)
we all need somebody
(yeah we can sink)
no worries, no worries
(or you can swim)
no worries, no worries
(or walk on out)
say it for me, say it for me,
(or jump right in)
we all need somebody

tc leeleemomo. thank god everythign is sorted out. please i made one stupid mistake in my life i dun need another. chill girl. and o wells i guess u juz havta put up with me n my incessant whinings on my recent crush. i believe in the miracles of wheatbix.

thanks to miao-ey for listening to my whinings grumblings n complainings. love love. i miss talking to u for hours n hours on the phone.

n im glad i will always hav rach n qi. so wad if im bad. thank lord for u all.

lurbe lurbe eeuuu. hahahahaha. n to that blurest ser. o my tian. u r freaking adorable. haz.

but we are still joyous coz we got band one for pw........! yayness. please. can we finally giv yun her long deserved treat.

the braces fairy. the angel. the elf.

heh-heh.

i miss hanging out with miao-ey n ahmah. U ALL HEARD DAT.

HI. AHMAH.

the ppl who remind me dat tj aint that bad afterall. hahahahaha/ poope. HALIAN boy. hahahahahahahahahaha. okok. here i go amusin myself again.

say hi to mr shithead.

oops. i hav a crush on u.

dun freak out. im nice, i swear.

whee.

hiak hiak.

the things we do to amuse ourselves.

我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

rahhhh
6:28 PM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

i think the older u get.

the more u feel like dying.

seriously as in dying. dead. end ur life.

我过得很累。真得很累。

its like. with all the un-needed stress from other stuff besides studying. life becomes such a chore.

n ppl. im so sorry i dun reply to msges on time. MOST PROB COZ IM SLEEPING THE DAY AWAY. so ya. sorry if i cldnt help. especially to leelee. the momo.

my addiction to sleep is scary.

makes me wanna find all sorts of excuses ta justify it. im running away from reality... stressed out.... blah blah......

kinda true though. neva really understood stress till i came to the freaking jc2.

can u imagine im starting to worry for my a's. its like hello i din use ta think bout exams at all till like the last 1 mth before the exams. n now im sum fretting shit worrying constantly bout my eva-so-low grades.

kill me please.

thank u.

i guess i wld b able ta survive anythin else once i passed my a's n hopefully secure a place in uni.

i wanna sleep. like foreva n eva n eva. n prob wake when i finally feel like waking.

rahhhh
9:09 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

irritating

i hate my freaking cough.

din go to sch. wow. missed my econs test. n now miss wong will think im a slacker. as usual.

fuck. i have been workin real hard.

it doesnt seem enuff.

my grades for the term is already like confirmed n i hope my parents wont freaking kill me.

worse of all they havta meet the teachers.

i bet i will get rave reviews.

fuck. but i have been seriously studying doing my work n all dat effing shit.

so.

im still a slacker amidst my classmates who all at least look hardworking.

i shld start wearing my thick purple specs ta sch tie my hair up wear my skirt long n freaking scare the shit outta the teachers so they finally can see that im actually studying.

i hate everything now as it is.

it seems like the hope of me gettin into uni is so damn freaking small.

n now my parents hopes will b dashed n all when they meet the teachers. like double wow. n then they will start all the pshyco shit.

stop my freaking cough now n giv me more memory space in my brain please.

grumbles.

or u might as well kill me. n at least make it painless please.

so where is the passion when you need it the most

rahhhh
9:49 PM

Thursday, April 06, 2006

the hills r alive......... with the sound of musiccccc

i love the ironical bits of things ppl say that make me wanna burst out in laughter.

like seriously choke on my water n pppffff it all out like a fountain. hahahahahahahaha.

o wells.

clowns r lovely creatures. besides the fugly eccentric spooky make-up.saying lame-assed jokes dat apparently everyone laughs at but me. the o-so-fake-hey-im-the-most-jovial-person around voice n laughter. well clowns amuse me only for one reason. irony. laughs. u neva know wad lies behind that white lil face of theirsssssss*high pitched squeal. juz like how u can call sum weird tele company to 'make more frens' n neva realise the ultra sweet n youthful voice actually belongs to an ahmah/ahgong. HOHO. lovely aint it. the pure knowledge of clowns dunno that im not amused by their jokes but how they actually behave in such irony. whee.

so move bitch get outta way get outta way bitch get outta way.

oops. n there goes the lovely demure kindhearted gentle caring o-so-sweet image of mine. or was it dere in the first place. ha.

rahhhh
9:43 PM

Smile

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile even tho' it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky

You'll get by,If you smile
thro' your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shin-ing thro' for you

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev-'ry trace of sadness,
Al -'tho a tear may be ever so near,

That's the time,
You must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worth-while,

If you just smile.

*oooo. i wish life was dat easy.

rahhhh
9:36 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

One Last Cry
Brain Mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

Cry.....

I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Stop living a lie

I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on
And on ....And on ....

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Been living a lie

I guess I'm down,
I guess I'm down,
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

freaking sad song ya.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

saka-ed.

rahhhh7:05 PM